Merry Christmas Reefy 2011

Dear Reefy, 

It is actually boxing day today, the surf is pumping and I have been out getting some bombs for a good 5 hours. Yewwwww.  Your bug brother is at his Mum's and I spoke to him yesterday, he was frothing over his pressies. 

I hope you liked the presents we sent down to you.  I tried to call you on Christmas day, but could not get through. Left you a voice mail saying that I hoped you had a wonderful Christmas and Santa brought you lots of fun things.  I am sure you have been the very best boy this year, and deserve all the goodies you can hold :) 

I would love to give you a big hug from Daddy for Christmas, but alas it is not to be this year. I sat at home yesterday and thought what a different Christmas it is to last year. Last year (2010) I had both you and Jesse over, and it was so cool.  Busy, busy, busy but so cool.  You both woke up, and tackled each other around the tree.  I think you loved the wrapping paper more than your actual pressy haha. 

I love so much having my boys together, it is what that day is all about.  I am trying so hard to see you buddy, but unfortunately your Mum is not really letting me.  I think of you every day, and love you with all my heart and soul.  I want to wrap you up in my arms and give you the biggest cuddle you have ever had, but your out of arms reach for me right now. 

One day it will turn around for us Reefy.  Your Daddy loves you, and will see to that your life has me in it, somehow.  My Christmas wish this year is that soon I can cuddle you, tickle you with my spiky face and wrestle you till you cant take it anymore haha.  Love you buddy.   

All my love, Daddy xxxxx

The world is an Interesting Place

 4/4/2011

 Dear Reefy, 

How are you this morning gorgeous boy?  I want to start by saying that I adore you, love you and miss you terribly.  There is a good chance I will start alot of my entries like this, and I suppose it is because it is my overriding emotion when I think of you. 

Last weekend was great, just hung out with Jesse. We went to the beach, to Levi's 2nd birthday, and I know he would have loved you to be there.  He was very cute.  Jesse played with him for ages. I suppose he kind of thinks of him like a little brother, although you will always be his little brother.

The world is an interesting place.  In today's paper there is a story about "Human Cow Milk". Some chinese scientists have created a herd of 200 genetically engineered cows, that produce breast milk. At least milk with the same properties as breast milk.  I wonder what on earth they will be doing when you are my age buddy.

It has been almost a year since your Mum went down to Melbourne with you and I got incredibly sad on the weekend when I had a realisation that I had missed the greater part of a year with you.  I hate it.  Although I hope with all my heart it will change my champion. I will make sure I see you here. Love you, cuddle you and be there for your days/month/years to come.

have a wonderful day, Love Dad xxxxxxx ooooo

A Day Soon After

Dear Reefy,

How are you buddy ?  I am sitting here in healthy chef, it is a chilly old morning. You can really feel winter slowly sneaking up behind us, every time I step outside.  I was hoping to come and see you this month but was unable to do it. Not by choice, I want you to know that. I am finding it so incredibly hard not seeing you, not watching you grow and develop into the great young boy that you are.

I dreamt about you last night.  At one point in the dream I could not find you, I asked my Mum who was looking for you too and she didn't know either.  I had this feeling of such dread in my heart that I had lost you.  I never want to lose you buddy. I want you to know that I will always love you and adore you even in those times when i can't be there for you. 

The sun is out here, I wonder what it is like where you are.  I hope you are having a wonderful time down there with Mum.  I will get Jesse to write in here too, he has been unwell with his eyes lately, and not really digging school.

Love you with all of my heart mate, 

Dad xxxxx oooooo