Hi Gorgeous Boy,
Jesse and I are sitting out on the balcony, and he is eating some chops and lettuce (and so not loving it haha) and I thought about how much I miss you. I love you and adore you buddy. We have not seen you since August last year, and it as not been from lack of trying to asking. Although that is another story for another time.
I want to tell you something very simple today my little man. Never let your fears rule you. Let not your fears win. Tonight I am so afraid of rejection in love again, although I am not going to let it win. I just wont.
I want to believe in love, I want to trust it, lay my head in its lap and let my soul rest for a moment. Although there are times when my past experiences want to rob me with fear. The greatest moments of your life my little man will be when you face a fear that would otherwise cripple you, and you rise above it.
I was just talking to Jesse about it. He said his greatest fear is paddling out the back on a stand up board. He said what if I get smashed ? You get back up and keep paddling. Then he said what if I get caught in a rip ? Well you paddle out of it.
There will be alot of "what if's" in life buddy. What you need to do is just say, well what if I dont overcome this. That what if is far worse than the ones that will come when you face that fear.
Jesse and I love you with all our hearts, and hoping to see you soon. Big kisses, hugs and tickles...
love Dad and Jesse xxxxxxxx
