Thinking of you today, I forgot to call you this morning and felt terrible, although when I tried last Friday your mum had her phone off. She has been quite upset since I responded to her letter. Falling in and out of love is a tough thing to understand, let alone explain. I suppose that today of all days, is a day that love is focused on and celebrated or missed.
It seems to some people once you say "I love you" " I want to spend my life with you" "I love waking next to you" and mean it with all your heart. If that relationship then fails, you have no right to ever say that to anyone else with any sincerity or truth. You have no right to ever fall in love again, you have no right to share the deepest places in your heart with them.I love with all my heart Reefy, and I loved your Mother, but she chose not to want it anymore. She chose to walk away, and now is very angry that after almost 2 years of living alone with Jesse my heart has been captured by someone who seems to value it. Who seems to want to return it. As wary and scared as I am. So afraid of being rejected again, of giving my heart and getting a return to sender. I have chosen to try again, to attempt to love again, and I think I suck at it haha.
I miss you with all my soul mate, and it seems like I am unable to get through to you again. I pray that this will shift sometime soon. I just want to hold you, and feel a little kiss from you. To make you giggle with my stubbly beard. I love you Reefy, and I will endevour to keep in touch with you.
all my love, Dad xxx 00
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